++ ..... ++

i become emotional when writing or sharing my BF experience.
[breastfeeding ye.bukan boyfriend]
last week i tot i'm ok.
tak kesah la kais hari ini utk makan esok...
but when d menstrual cycle hit me,
d milk production dropped again.
aku mcm dah pening n runsing n stress n GIVE UP.

serious rase give up sgt.
penat dah.
taktahu nak telan ape dah.
shaklee blom try lg btw...

yesterday morning, i pumped out 3oz pon amek mase 30mins.
then Zareef nanges nak nenen.
tp susu da abes masuk dlm bottle!
sian sgt dgr die nanges.
suap die solid food.
die makan sungguh-sungguh sbb lapar sgt.
then bile dukung msti mulut die nganga cari nenen jugak.
tapi aku tade ape nak diberi pade Zareef.....
T-T

so i texted Z.
i told him dat i am giving up.
dah taktahu nak buat ape.
nipple sampai da besar semacam n sakit kot sbb asik pump.
eiii..trauma kdg-kdg...

my BF journey is not only rocky,it is also bumpy n...dead end maybe?
tapi bile nak give up,tgok muke Zareef mesti hati jadi sayu sesayu sayunye.
sedih sgt kot.
i keep on asking myself.
hv i done my best?
hv i tried everything?

i put my health at a risk right now.
tah.serious tah taktahu nak buat ape dah.
aku masih akan pump.
cume really,
Zareef kene topup dgn FM bile dgn kak Mas.
atleast dgn kak Mas die minum gak.
dengan aku mmg bersilat die tamo bottle.

cucuk Depo, peod gelong.
makan Yasmin susu kering.
berjenti Yasmin,peod gelong.
bile peod,affect susu lagi.
da tu camne?
org len rileks je aku tgok.
x makan supplement pon B keras dgn susu.

tapi tu la...susu ni rezeki dari Allah..
siape lah aku nak persoalkan knp rezki org lebih...
rezki susu die banyak,
tapi aku byk rezki lain...
begitu la Allah mengadili hamba-hambaNya..
sesungguhnya aku dah redha sangat-sangat.
tapi keadaan Zareef yg tanak minum FM kalau dgn aku ni...
buat aku kesian sgt kat die.
bg FM macam minum racun.
ade skali tu...
aku suap FM...
mate die pejam.
kemain die nyonyot kuat-kuat.
pehtu die terbukak mate n sedar yg aku bg bottle.
terus nanges tepis botol.
adui la anakku....
asalnye da minum da tuh...

ntah.letih da nak menyedih dgn nasib diri.
cube setakat terdaya.......................

ohye.
duit usim dah masuk.
duit bonus da masuk.
alhamdulillah.
petang ni berbuke di hotel empire subang.
nippon paint prize giving ceremony.

tak sabar nak shopping raye.
nak complete kan ape yg tak pernah-pernah cukup.
hahaha.

Zareef is turning 6 next week.
hadiah utk Zareef adelah slow cooker utk masak bubur!
n kalau ade rezki lebih nak beli high chair utk die.
insyaAllah...

YaAllah..sesungguhnye Engkau yg menurunkan rezeki kepada setiap hambaMu...aku bermohon jika masih ada rezeki susu utk anakku, Engkau mudahkan lah perjalanan ini Ya Allah. Namun jika sebaliknya...aku redha...kumohon mudahkan lah anakku menerima susu selain susu ibunya...dan semoga dia tetap membesar dgn sihat dan sempurna..jauhkanlah aku dari rasa sedih dan bersalah ini...sesungguhnya Engkau yg Maha Mengetahui...

++tHanK u to U ++

alhamdulillah.
thanks pade kawan-kawan yg bg support bile aku cite pasal bf.
ade yg msg,ade yg pm kt fb,drop comments n all...
thanks sgt-sgt.

sbb aku tade join mane2 group breastfeed mommies.
just share dgn 3,4 org kwn-kwn yg same-same ade bb je...
so tade tempat mengadu..
thanks ye kawan yg prihatin!

alhamdulillah.
lepas 3,4 ari stop Yasmin,
susu dah kembali banyak.
tade la banyak sgt smpi melimpah ruah.
tp alhamdulillah,bekalan Zareef cukup.
dah 3+oz FM masuk dalam perot Zareef kat umah kak mas.
nak korek balik tak boleh.
tapi lepas ni boleh suh kak mas stop bg FM.
selagi susu mama cukup,Zareef minum susu mama je tau!

arini pegi sacc mall shah alam nak cari baju Zareef.
last month pegi ade 1 kedai [name dirahsiakn]
ade jual baju osh kosh yg agak murah.
bile tanye kat salesgirl,die kate original.
tp last month dtg x beli.
so tadi g dgn ayuni mektok nak beli la 3,4 helai.
harge memang murah la dari osh kosh d curve.
so aku cam peliks la.
mungkinkah reject kan.
sbb label kat belakang baju tu mcm ade conteng.
macam kat reject shop punye baju.
tanye sales girl,
die kate bukan reject.tp sbb ni bukan butik osh kosh,
jd dorg kene conteng label tu.
aku double triple pelik!

aku dok bising2 kat ayuni ni mcm baju reject.
salesgirl kat sebelah tu buat muke tak puas hati
n cakap ni bukan reject jugak.
then aku dok belek overall ni,
rupenye butang sebelah lain-lain.
tgok overall yg lain ok.
yg ni pulak butang pelik.
hahaha!
aku pon panggil salesgirl tu tanye.
die kate mmg mcmni fashion nye.
pehtu aku tunjuk overall lain yg button normal.
die terus bawak baju tu g stor!
huh.

then aku belek overall lain.
rupenye ade jahitan yg buruk.
amek lg 1 yg len,
overall len ade 4buttons,
yg ni ade 3 je!
huh nampak sgt setiap satu mmg ade cacat nye kan!
kan reject namenye tuh!
overall tu 59.90.
rase kat osh kosh dalam 79.90 kot.
so baik beli kat sane.
aku tak kesah sgt yg defect sikit2 o kat belah dlm.
sbb bukan org nampak kan.
tp masalahnye sampai sudah dok cakap bukan reject yg aku bengang tuh.
langsung tak beli pape.
nak g d curve cm dah lewat.
so len kali la g beli kat butik osh kosh sebenar.
bukan osh kIsh!hahaha.

masuk body shop tershopping plak barang mekup.
belanja ayuni 1.
aku beli 3.
tade dlm list pon nak beli makeup raye.
dasar shopaholic.
x dpt osk kosh g beli body shop pulak.

before balik singgah fabulous mom.
asalnye nak beli ni

aritu Zareef luke bawah hidung.risau sgt.yg ni ade teatree untuk treat luke bb.

terbeli jugak ini.******************************************************************

tadi first time dalam tahun ni berbuke sorang.
Z bukak kat hotel company blanje.
next week baru bley bawak spouse.
tetibe sayu bukak sorang wpon Zareef ade dok bergolek depan TV.
selalu Z yg bace doa.
selalu ade je bende nak sembang.
selalu ade je bende nak gaduh.
arini makan sorang-sorang.
terus text Z sedih2.
Z pon tetibe bg text sedih...
hahaha.
cam tah hape hape.
camne la org laki bini dok jauh-jauh.
T-T
tumpang sedih utk org len.

oklah.
jumaat nak ronda jalan tar dgn tasha.
semalam g dgn Z.tapi tak beli pape.
buat lawatan dulu.
hihi.

++ ReZKi ++

bulan ni macam banyak pulak rezeki.
menang Nippon Paint contest worth RM2k.
is invited to d prize giving ceremony kat hotel subang.

then Z told me that his company trip is in october.
going to Taiwan.
boleh bawak istri free of charge.
siap dapat duit poket.
so maybe di situlah kami babymoon.
hiks.
Zareef pon ikut tau!

then 1 evening Z balik tetibe.
slalu message sblom balik.
muke berseri-seri.
dok ciom-ciom Zareef n aku.
then bawak keluar a bundle of 50 notes.
rezeki di bulan Ramadhan.
alhamdulillah.

pre-walker shoes mendapat sambutan.
alhamdulillah.
yg ready stock boleh bawak balik kampung nnti.
:)

mcm banyak rezeki........
tapi aku sedih sbb rezeki susu Zareef sangat menurun.
:'(
d fact that i'm fasting.
org cakap puasa tak menjejaskan susu unless if u r dehydrated.
n aku adelah selalu dehydrated.
selalu nak pitam.pukul 4,5 memang dah lembik-lembik badan.
:'(

ari jumaat first time bukak pose sbb sahur sikit sgt.
pukul 10am da lembik!
so berbuke la sy.
ari ahad pukul 6am da bukak pose!
sbb....sbb...
susu tade...:'(
Zareef da nanges-nanges lapar.

last week when i went back to hometown,
i went to see my gynae.
i told her dat my menstrual cycle has gone crazy.
yelah.sebulan 4 ari je tak peod.
ape kes.sian z n aku.haha.
then she suggested i stop Depo n try amik contraceptive pills.
tp bukan norriday.sbb kalau ambil norriday,
it will give me d same effect mcm Depo.
so she suggested to take Yasmin
[same yg aku ambil sblom kawen tuk betolkan peod]
but she warned me milk production will be affected.
aku discuss dgn Z n he said ok lah try Yasmin pulak.

who knows that it really affects my milk production.
sampi tade susu!!!!
a few days earlier ok lg.
sbb dose die masih rendah kot dalam badan.
masuk day 6.
tetibe susu tade.
ade la.tapi sikit sangat.
typical mum like me agak stubborn tamo bagi FM.
so i took my EBM, put it in d bottle n fed him.
Zareef ni mmg dari dulu kalau dengan mummy die,
die tanak bottle.
kalau ngan kak Mas ok pulak die.
maybe he knows; mommy is here so i want direct feeding!
so die mmg reject my EBM.
then sbb lapar, die dok nyonyot jugak-jugak sampai tertido.
adoi laaaa...

the next morning,
baru lepas sahur pon..
die nak susu tapi susu terlampau sikit!
Zareef da start ngamuk.
dengan linangan airmate i made him FM.
tried to feed him,
lagi kuat die nanges.
then mintak Z pulak yg suapkan kot mau.
nanges kuat sangat.
susu yg masuk dlm mulut tu die muntah kan balik.
siap sembur2 airliur mcm sedih sgt mamapapa bg susu x sedap.
nanges lg aku.
sian sgt.
then bile aku nak bg direct feeding,
die nangis mcm takut sgt tu FM.
6am terus bukak pose.
:'(
minum hot milk.
adelah rase susu ter'produce'.
pujuk2 Zareef baru die nak nenen.
[merajuk kuat!]
terus tertido...
siannye la..

kesimpulannya Yasmin sgt kejam!
aku dah bincang dgn Z.
nak stop la amik Yasmin.
aku boleh terime kalau rezeki susu utk Zareef setakat ni.
n terpakse topup FM.
nak buat macamne kalau Allah tentukan macamni.
tp masalahnye Zareef tanak.
takkan nak biar die lapar...
maybe Z n i will need to try other things for family plannings.
ANY other things yg tak affect susu.

nak kate tak usahe,
mcm-mcm dah buat.
makan supplement dah macam pesakit cancer telan ubat.
:(
ape org cakap elok,
cepat2 beli.
sampai badan dah bau ubat!
T.T
tp tulah.
aku anggap ni ujian.
masih berdoa n berusaha.
aku selalu cakap,
takpela kalau kene topup FM utk bulan puase.
then pastu fully breastfeed balik selagi termampu.
tp Zareef boikot FM habis-habisan.

when i read blogs pasal breastfeed ni..
i think i have these problems:

1. mase pregnant x niat betol2 nak susukan anak.waktu tu mcm blur.bile Zareef da kluar baru bertekad.
2. kurang minum air. aku adelah tak suke minum air banyak-banyak sbb tak suke kene kencing banyak.fullstop.
3. slalu skip pumping sessions.yes.especially kat office sbb skrg rase malu nak pump kalu ramai sangat kat office.bunyi machine ngrenggg ngrengggg...
4. cepat lapar tp tak reti nak isi perot.ni kes bukan di bulan pose la.di bulan pose ni aku da 3 ari tak pose tau!T.T

tu je kot.selebihnye aku masih berdoa,berusaha n tawakal!
da start letak tumbler atas kepale.so tiap kali terjage nak kencing malam-malam,
lepas kencing minum lg air banyak-banyak.so bile bangun kencing lg,minum lg.dats how it works now.
n terpakse la tak pose a few days dah kalau tgok susu tade.i have to.

technically-nye, masih fully breastfeed Zareef.
but im ready to add 1 session of FM in his meal.
everybody wants d best.
so-do-i.

++ oF BrEasTFeeDing & SoLiD FooD ++

i welcomed a lot of reactions when announcing that Zareef is going to have his solid food in his 4 months +.
some give +ve feedbacks.
some just rudely give -ve feedbacks.

i know d fact that babies r advised to have their first solid food after 6months.
but every child is individual n unique.
as i said, we can't compare 1 child to another.
cause d development is different.
i read, i asked n i consulted experts before i started feeding Zareef.
every mom wants d best for their babies.
same goes to me.
i appreciate advise.
but i dont welcome harsh critiques n all.
thank u.

so i made him apple puree.
it was very easy to prepare.
i added in my EBM n Zareef loves it.
puree is super soft so it is d best for his digestive system.
n it is easy to prepare too.
i'm lucky to have another new blender given by Z's friend on our wedd day.
it is 1 year+, n now only i start using it for Zareef's food.
[dont use kitchen blender for babies' food]

n of my breastfeeding journey......T.T
i still breastfeed him exclusively.
but the journey has [sort of] came to an end.
d milk production has dropped drastically.
last month, i was only period-free for 4days!!!!
T.T
the rest were heavy flows..
i became restless n d milk production declined as milk is from blood.

but i'm still trying to breastfeed him exclusively.
semlam macam force diri.
malam terus pening n nak pitam lagi.
see?
but i dont want to give up!
mesti berusaha.
selagi ade rezeki Zareef mmg tanak campor FM..
unless kalau terpaksa...
T.T

till here then.
.xoxo.

++ JaDeD ++

haih.
penat.
there r committee meetings going around for these few weeks.
n i was in-charged on editing the current evaluation forms.
peliks.
last sem was my 1st sem teaching that subject.
tu pon ajar half way coz i went for maternity leave.
so with very little experience,
i revamped n edited the forms.
alhamdulillah, 60% of my new adaptions are good n will be implemented for next sem.

i did wish n pray for a lot of good things on the early of june right?
seems none turn out right YET.
Z is still having problem with his stomach.
Zareef with his cough n flu.
n i found myself getting infected by Zareef.

maybe next week when i get my hands on my new handphone,
life would turn out beautiful!
hahaha.

my sister is giving birth next week.
since she will go for Cesarean,
she can actually choose the date n she chose 20/06/11.
nothing nice with the numbers arrangement.
it is just the best time for her n d baby!
oh baby boy again.
suma grandsons la nampaknya keturunan incik Din!
[for d time being]
i want to have baby girl!!!!
hahaha.gatai.

Zareef alhamdulillah membesar dgn hebat.
makin lama makin berat.
now suka angkat-angkat kaki tanpa ketahuan motif.
yg pasti comel selalu di mata papamama.
:)


angkat 1 kaki.

angkat 2kaki.

kusyuk tengok babytv.

my frozen EBM.in chiller got a few more.

++ SuNDaY ++

morning sunday!
:)

yesterday we were visited by z's bestfriends~eira n her husband.
they came around 3pm until 9pm.
so sempat la lunch n dinner same-same.
n sempat dera eira masak utk dinner.
hehehe.

as far as i can remember,
yesterday was d 1st time we stayed at home without going anywhere when z is on leave.
before this every weekend filled up with a lot of activities.
somehow it wasn't that bad to spend d whole day at home.

i managed to pump out 12oz yesterday.
there were 2 morning sessions and 1 session in afternoon.
then i was too bz with d guests.

oh yes!on friday morning, i woke up at 4.45am to pump out my milk;discovering i needed to hold to the wall to balance myself.i was so dizzy but didn't care much.
after pumping,i continued sleeping n when i woke up at 7+,i still feeling drowsy.
by that time i was confused whether to go working or not which at d end i went.
during lunch break both z n i brought Zareef for his 3rd jab.
he weighs 6.6kg already.
after Zareef,i asked d doc to check me n yadaa yadaa ~ i had low blood pressure.
so yesterday, z went to the market n purchased all nutritious food that were believed to increase the blood cells in our body.
hopefully it's not going to happen again.i am so worried that i might faint while holding Zareef.

haih.i used to think i am strong. well, i was strong during my pregnancy. but after 1 week started working,i understand how hard it's to be a working housewife.

*sigh*

- aunty unkel Zareef -

somehow i feel OK to send Zareef to d current babysitter.
somehow everything seems OK.
i hope he will be OK.
i love the fact that the new babysitter is also in d same block as ours.
so it is VERY convenient for me.

well yesterday i went to littlewhiz in setia alam to buy 1more set of cooler bag+icepacks.
money flows out like water.
it's only 1st june n i feel like so poor already.
hahaha.



this is my first time pumping milk at office.
everyone one is out except the Korean instructor n i.
so i asked her permission before pumping out.
somehow i forget to bring my nursing poncho
[when all the time it is in my handbag,somehow yesterday i took it out T-T]

i managed to pump out 4 oz ONLY.
stress betol la ngan production susu nih.
kene mintak tolong Z lg kot.
hi.hi.hi.

i miss this little cuddler so much.
i miss u darling Zareef.


i can't wait for weekends for i can spend d whole day n night with Zareef.

++ PiTy HiM ++

from office,i went straight to JJ equine to buy a few stuffs to be left at Zareef's babysitter's house [banyaknye possessive pronouns..hehe]. i hate the idea of taking a lot of trunks everyday to send to her house.even this morning,Z took 2trunks to d house before he left for work.by the time i wanted to send Zareef,i couldn't bring my handbag n work bag plus the cooler bag.it felt like crazy.n i didn't want to risk Zareef' safety.

so i bought another basin for Zareef to take his bath as kak ita[the babysitter] doesn't have any.she claims that all the babies there do not use basin to bath.but Zareef cried so loud this morning during bathing time. which forced me to buy the basin asap.anak manja mama.

by the time i picked him just now,he was crying for milk.so i held him in my hands n hugged him tightly. it took him a few minutes before he realized that he was cuddled by me.he stopped crying,stared at my face n suddenly carved a smile.later he giggled. :)

i know he is not happy staying there.but that is d only place available at the moment.be tough dear Zareef.

i think i need to buy another cooler bag n set of icepacks.kak ita doesn't have a chiller.she has frozen fridge only.i don't prefer to give Zareef with frozen milk all the times. because frozen milk has less nutrients compared to chilled milk [but frozen milk is always better than formula milk].
if i get another cooler bag,i can leave it at her house as the icepacks can last up to 14hours.

well yes,breastfeeding is not easy.but never give quit Lya!all the best for little Z.

++ OuR DReaMs ++

dreams can be shared!
the day i applied for Masters,
Z was looking thru possible courses for engineering as well.
then he said that he wanted to apply for Masters too.

i was like a lil bit shocked.
before this he used to say he's not going to study now sbb malas.
but then tu la...
life is full of surprises!

he will apply to take Masters in this coming sem.
but then he still needs to ask his boss.
his crazy working hours might b d only barrier for his dream.

so,ade rezki both of us will do Masters together.
if not,i'll do first n Z will follow later.

ohye.
i just found out a new,exciting way to increase EBM.
with Z's help, actually.
thanks to him!
hihihihi.
Zareef minum sampai tersedak because banyak sgt susu.

++ MiLK ++

before this, i used to think that breastfeeding was sooo not in trend.i thought that it would be easier and better to give formula milk to babies.only when i was pregnant, i started googling about breastfeeding.n when z started to interfere,i became so serious about breastfeeding Zareef.

n as i mentioned in previous n3,it is not that easy.u need to have the equipments n eventho it is a big investment,but for long run,it will benefit u n d baby insyaAllah.

i was so worried before this with the milk production.when most breastfeed mommies are period-free for months,i already got mine for twice!when u r in menstrual cycle,the milk production is declining.that was what happened to me.

i started my milk stock last 3weeks.having Zareef 24/7, i would not be able to pump seriously.his sleeping time is d best time for me to run house chores.by the time i hold medela,he will wake up n demand for milk.when i went to nilai last two days,i realized that i managed to pump out 10 oz in one session.alhamdulillah.i'm going to start working by next week.so i hope that i will b able to supply sufficient milk stock for Zareef!insyaAllah.

today z n i will need to purchase another dozen of milk storage bottles n the BPA-free plastics storage as well.i like mom's little one bottles!fit well with medela n the indicators r cute!hihi.

the best thing about breastfeed our babies is seeing how he gains his weight n develops body cells from ur own milk!every drop of mom's milk = every drop of blood = love!

up to today, i have 16bottles that consist 4 @ 5oz milk =65+ oz and some milk in plastic bags that i'm not sure of the total amount.yes,my friends have more milk stocks from mine,but i'm thankful with what gifted by Allah as for today.
:)

makanan Zareef.

++ BaBySiTTeR ++

so, i sent Zareef to his babysitter on wednesday. it was a sad,gloomy day. i cried a lot on dat day.ok,scratch dat.i cried a lottttt since a few days before....i do understand why mommies cry when they send their kids to nurseries/babysitters!

i put Zareef in his stroller.eventho the house is at 5th floor,but with so many bags,it would be easier+safer to put him in d stroller.but Zareef thought that we were going for a walk when i put him in d stroller.he smiled n laughed at me n i cried like crazy.

he was there for only 4,5hours.i went to nilai to attend a briefing.n when d briefing ended,the sky was so dark n later it rained heavily.there were a lot of thunders n lightnings.u couldn't barely see the road n other cars.but this super mummy sped all the way to see d charming little angel.

when i arrived at kak mas's house,Zareef was sleeping in the buai.as i came near him,i heard that he made sounds.like sobbing sounds in his sleep which broke my heart instantly.he might be very sad n scared being left to someone so stranger to him.when we reached our house,Zareef woke up n he looked around the house with confusing gaze.i came near him n couldn't stop myself from giving him trillion kisses n cried at the same time.Allah knows how much i miss this little kid.

he smiled n laughed at me.n i held him in hands for a long time.i need to send him again on thursday coz i'll be going to nilai againnnnn....but this time around, z will send him coz i'll be out early in the morning.so yesterday, i woke up at 6am while Zareef was still sleeping.at 6.30 i woke him up so that i could breastfeed him.he didn't sleep after that.n when i gave goodbye kisses,again he smiled n laughed at me;showing off his small dimple. :)

n i cried in the car all the way to nilai.n every chance that i got,i would look at his pictures in my handphone.it feels like u are in love with someone.

kak mas said Zareef sleeps better in buai coz he used to startle to every sound around him.yes, Zareef is easily startled by any sounds which explains the reasons why z n i talk in whispering tones,why we silent our hps,why we mute the TV n read the subtitles even for malay movies, n a lot more....hihi..it is in d beginning of his sleep.when he is really in deep sleep,he doesn't really care with what happens around him.but i do understand that kak mas won't be able to hug n sleep with him like what i've done.so i let Zareef sleeps in the buai, but minus the electric box!

i will start sending him to kak mas again by next thursday. d end of my 3months maternity leave.n i'll be going to nilai a lot.i think Zareef will be ok n he will understand why mama leaves him during the day.u'll have me all night long!

things changed.zareef n i need to catch up.we are no longer twin.berkepit doploh4jam.hihi.but i love u Zareef. n i just don't know when will i stop crying when thinking about leaving u.

Zareef n his trunks!mcm nak pindah.

mama's milk

i wonder how this small creature would give a very big impact in my life.

++ n3 penuh emosi ++

alhamdulillah,sewaktu dlm pantang dah jumpe babysitter Zareef.Kak Mas duduk 1 apartment,1block cume tinggal kat 5th floor.rumah pon depan lif je.last 3weeks saje la g bertandang ke rumah die sebab nak tengok org nye macamane.nampak lembut n baik sgt.campur Zareef n anak die,die cume jage 3org jela...syukur sbb aku mmg tanak sgt anta ke nursery.tapi makin dekat nak anta die ke kak mas,makin sayu je hati ini...aku tahu aku kene belajar to trust somebody else...n aku mmg pecaye kan kak mas...cume sedih sbb kene bagi pade tangan asing utk jage die...sekarang ni selalu btau Zareef yg aku kene keje,siang2 die kene duk ngan org len..lepas btau je die meragam...nak ngempeng je...aduiii...sedihnye tgok anak mama...

Dear Zareef,
lusa mama tinggalkan Zareef ngan Mama Mas tau.Zareef jgn meragam ye syg...mama pegi keje sekejap je..mama tinggalkan susu mama utk Zareef...syg minum botol tau..malam bile dgn mama,Zareef menyusu dgn mama ye...mama pegi keje nak cari duit..nak beli barang Zareef..nak bagi keselesaan n sgale yg terbaik utk Zareef..walaupon mama tade,tapi mama selalu ingat Zareef..bile ade mase terluang mama balik jenguk Zareef ye...Zareef kena behave tau...Mama Mas nak jage 2org lagi baby...mama risau Zareef tamo tido selagi tade mama...hmmm...mama sentiase doakan keselamatan anak mama ni...mama syg Zareef sgt2 tau!

kak mas,
anak liya ni tak biase tade liya...die biase tido atas lengan liya..tido satu bantal n nak dipeluk erat2...mase mandi tak boley air sejuk sbb die takut.kene gune air suam...sekarang die da pandai meniarap.kadang2 nak tido meniarap.selalunye liya perhatikan die sbb takut hidung die tersembam pade bantal..takut die susah nak bernafas...Zareef tak suke kalu tak tukar diaper bile die berak...Zareef tak biase minum botol.tp seblom ni bile bagi die ok...akak tengok2 la anak sy ye kak...sy susah hati sgt nak tinggalkan die...sy percayekan akak..harap akak sayangkan die seikhlas hati...

.mama dan zareef.

++ BrEaStFeeDiNg JouRNeY ++

breastfeed my baby is not as easy as i thought.
dulu ingat when it's time,
just selak n sumbat.
hahaha.
but it is wayyyy more complicated than that.
u need strength, determination,patience,passion,
n a lot more!

i have been breastfeeding my baby for 2months++.
alhamdulillah.
inilah rezeki Allah utk Zareef.
sampai bila taktahu la...
but hopefully biarlah selama yg mungkin.

during confinement,
my milk was like waterfall.;p
but i didnt have the chance to make milk stock
since my mum's fridge is full all the time.
so when i went back to KL,
z n i bought electric breast pump
n i started to take things seriously.
making stock before i go back to work.
but somehow the milk production is quite disappointing...
i tried everything that i could.
i made research,i made purchases.
yes, i bought milk booster from amway.
i bought fenugreek chocolate drink.

alhamdulillah,
the milk production has made me smile again.
:)
the milk stocks r nothing to be proud of.
i still need to work hard.
i need to discipline myself with pumping sessions.
no more skipping sessions.

insyaAllah,
hopefully dengan usaha ini,
Allah akan berkati dengan susu yg melimpah ruah.
amin.

everything for u Zareef.
always the best for u, Allah's will.

++ tommee tippee ++

barang tommee tippee si kecik yg tak bape nak kecik ni da sampai.
punye la eksaited mummy nye!

sejak da lame tak pump,
hasil tenusu adelah agak merudum.
:(

td pump cepat-cepat sebab nak try pakai botol.
dapat 1oz je.
pehtu terus suap kat bb zareef.
ingatkan die tolak sbb a few days ni mmg tgah try asuh die pakai botol.
tp sume die tamo.
n alhamdulillah teat ni sesuai kot dgn die.
die minum sampai abes.
n tak cukup plak.
terpakse direct bf je.

arap-arap pehni pon die nak la minum dari botol nih.
kalu betol ok,
nak beli beberape lagi barang tommee tippee.

ok dats all.
tata.