++ MaiN MaSaK-MaSaK ++

alhamdulillah.
sekarang dah boleh memasak.
sebelum ni x lalu nak dok lama-lama kat dapur.
meloya je kekdahnye kan.

malam ni masak nasik lomak sajo.
barang-barang basah x de.
n aku sendiri dah dua tahun lebih x masuk pasar borong.
kalau terdesak sangat memang shopping d jj depan umah je.
tp Z kate rugi.
sebab pasar borong dekat rumah ni lagi fresh n murah.
jadi Z ajelah yg g membeli belah di pasar borong bila perlu

aku rasa Allah macam tengah memberi sesuatu petunjuk pada aku.
benda yg aku dah lama nak...
tp x dapat.
tiba2 kali ni terbentang di depan mata.
aku tengah pikir either this is d best option for me or not.
n either it will do good for us.
us dcni refers to aku,Z,Zareef n baby...

masih berfikir2.
ntah lah.
aku rasa plan hidup aku n Z dah huru hara sesangat sangat.
lain yg kami plan...
lain pulak yg kami buat...

tadi Z dapat surat increment.
first time dapat increment setinggi itu.
tapi macam dah too late je....

haih.
ntahlah.
serabut aku.

++ iNDeeD ++

++ DeSiRe ++

bile bercuti lame kat kampung je,
confirm akan ade rase nak cari kerja lain n pindah balik kuala kangsar for good.
masalahnye bukan aku sorang.
Z pon same.

last year,around december kot...d same feeling hit us.
mase tu rase down je.both of us mcm hlg mood nak stay in KL.
after a month or so,baru recover balik.
somehow i was glad that we didnt make any decision that time.
we eventually bounced back to or normal life.

during our stay this time,
my sis n bro in law bawak kiteorg pusing bukit chandan n certain developing areas in KK.
masyaAllah,kuala dah lain sgt.
sblom ni kiteorg balik kejap2.so mmg takde mase nak pusing.
so this time around,mmg mcm trkjut gile.how.fast it has developed.
yop n yong dah beli lot tanah banglo nak.buat rumah.so sebelah tanah dorang tu still vacant.
dorg dok push suh beli.so that we can build our houses near to each other.n we can share d pool n porch n blablabla...
perancangan dah gempak gile.
haha.
tanah kat kuala mahal gila.
tanah yg yong bought 90k.tanah kosong je pon.
blom buat rumah lg kan.
tanah sebelah yong tu lg besar.so d price can boost up until 150k.gilaaa....

yop cakap nak try nego dgn owner tanah tu.
tahlah.nanti tgok camne.
z dah berkobar nak pindah kuala.
aku pulak tak pasal2 rase nak dok penang.
hahaha.
last thursday g penang lawat ayun n her baby.
n every road in penang reminds me of how happy i was when i was there.
=)

oklah.nnti sembang lg.
now dalam kete.
baru sampai puchong.
x sampai lg rumah.haha.

++HoPe++

Z n I are really stress out in making d decision.

when there r too many options,

d crazier u will be.

not to mention about other problems that happen to us.

it is very hard to satisfy others when we ourselves are not satisfied.

nevermind,

lets put our trust in HIM.

because HE is d one who knows the best for us.

p/s: atas sebab itu, production bab 9 lembab macam siput khinzir!

++ ReaLiTi ++

++ NoW & tHeN ++

marriage is not perfect all the times.
i experience different things during lovey-dovey couple moments
and after i am married.

i always tak sabar to get married dulu.
i cant tolerate dgn perasaan rindu yg membuak-buak.
how funny z n i spent a lot of money, time n energy.
berulang-alik kl-penang.
then kl-johor-perak.
just because we missed each other so much.

ari-ari pon we kept on discussing about wedding.
cite nak anak bape la...
blabalabla...
hp macam tak berengang.
sikit-sikit message.
tade mende pon nak cakap.
tapi wajib msg melainkan waktu tido, solat, berak, mandi.
hahahaha.
mase DiGi buat promo utk Uni students dulu,
kol singgit lepas tu letak.
then kol balik for free the whole day.
masyaALLAH..
z akan kol sepanjang hari.
die buat assignment die kat UM.
aku buat keje aku kat USM.
die sembang dgn kawan-kawan die di UM.
aku sembang dengan clique aku di USM.
tp we were on the phone!
sampai mcmtu skali!

=)

d gooooood old times...

sekarang,
after everything is halal,
i found that marriage is not as sweet as i thought of before this.
is it because i expect too much?

now that we live together,
seeing each other,
there r more issues to argue about.
HA-HA.
simple little things have been so big for me.
yes.ME.
Z jenis pendam n terime je.
aku je yg suke emo-emo.

fasa hidup aku adelah super cepat!
baru keje terus kawen terus ngandung terus beranakkan Zareef comel.
cepatttt sgt!
baru nak enjoy duit gaji dah kene nyimpan tuk kawen.
baru nak berkepit lepas kawen terus ngandung.
hormon org ngandung ni pelik sikit.hihi.
then Zareef datang n aku menjadi sgt bz sebagai Supermak!
Z bukanlah tak sehebat Superbapak.
cume keje mak lagi banyak kan.

i find myself restless n very tired every morning n every night.
=(
yelah.i'm a working housewife...
Z balik keje dah malam.
tak banyak yg die boleh tolong.
n sometimes aku tak suke nak suruh-suruh.
[hoping that he will know what to do which he doesnt.hahaha]
so aku kuat emo.
Z suke buat lawak bile aku merajuk.
dok raba geletek nak bagi aku gelak.
kadang-kadang jadi.
kadang-kadang buat aku lg emo.
:D
so mule la masing-masing merajuk.

i remember a few months ago.
when i was too tired,
Z pulak x paham....
i cried while washing d dishes.
Z terkujat n terus peluk dari belakang.
n pujuk-pujuk.
i didnt expect that i would broke like that.
tetibe je rase sedih n letih SANGAT-SANGAT.
n i dont want that to happen again.
n i dont want to remind Z dat i need his help when i broke like that.
he should help me earlier before.
NO?

aku adelah selalu emo.
kadang-kadang terpikir.
ade baby blues lagi ke?
siap plan nak lari jauh-jauh bagi Z cuak.
hahaha.

it doesnt happen all the times.
there r sweet n happy moments too!
BUT...

i keep on asking myself.
kenape Z x sweet mcm dulu?
dulu die x delah romantic sgt.
tapi he really took good care of me.
dengar ade budak ajak kua makan,
die dah punched dinding kete sampai luke tangan.
jeles lah kan.
gaduh je terus terjah dari UM ke USM.
oh hebat nye rase power cinta waktu tu.

sekarang die dah x sayang ke?
bile cite ade budak laki kat mcD ikut sampai kereta,
die cume cakap lepas ni pakai cincin.
haha.
paling dasat pon bile ade engineering student yg very daring
dok puji-puji mata aku,
Z cakap nak g jumpa budak tuh.
bile partner jeles rase macam disayangi!
NO?

ni lah masalah aku.
selalu rase Z macam dah tak sayang.
so selalu tanye.
abg syg syg x?
banyak mane?
Z pon boring nak jawab.

sebenarnye i'm d one yg x berubah mengikut masa.
times change.
marriage is something real.
zaman couple is more to fairytale.
bile Z x cakap die sayang,
doent mean dia x sayang.
cuma there r so many commitments lain.
tapi aku suka dia cakap sayang tiap-tiap ari macam dulu.
=(

kesian Z kena layan perangai budak-budak inih!
when i sad,
i always remember d traits that made me fall in love to Z...
d good old times.
n d good new times we had after marriage.
[ade...bukan xde...]
cume yelah...
aku suke kami sentiase mcm dulu.
cume skrg Z sgt bz dgn keroje.
selalu tension pasal keroje.
n aku tahu.
i'm not fair to him too.
dulu manja kemain.
sekarang ni letak baju kat dining table pon aku bebel x henti.
=(

marriage is a long life learning.
we learn new things everyday.
dah la x berguru.
jadi kite kene pk ape yg baik n ape yg tidak.
baru setahun lebih.
there r more to come!
z n i should learn to tolerate
n spice up our r/ship.
moga dipermudahkan Allah!

thanks to that little boy, Zareef.
gaduh macamane pon,
when Zareef buat lawak,
kami mesti gelak same-same.
mesti dok cakap-cakap pasal Zareef.

so terus berbaik.
:)

++ TaiWaN..ToUcH oUr hEaRt ++

oh.dah 3minggu dekat.
baru berkesempatan nak cite.
bukan wajibbul pon.
tp dah tua nanti kot da nyanyuk,
boleh baca kat cni!

so it was 8-day trip.
we went around d whole taiwan island.
kire singgah cni jap,
singgah sane jap.

at 1st i was a bit tak excited about d trip.
i worried too much about Zareef.
pasal makanan die,
takut die crancky,
takut die x cukuop tido,
n d list goes on.

tp masyaAllah.
i enjoyed d trip!
despite d fact agak penat sbb pusing 1 island,
tapi yg lain mmg enjoy.
Zareef ade la sgt baik.
sume org suke die.
in our trip ade 22org + 1 tourist guide + 1 tour leader.
sume fanatic kat Zareef.
dorang suke mate bulat die.
[macam mate mommy die kan!]

kirenye g mane-mane pon sume sebuk nak dukung,
ambil gambar die.
org taiwan, china, japan, korea....
suma dok kerumun dia.
da la rasa glamour sbb i'm d only one yg pakai tudung.
Zareef asyik posing la org ambil gambar, record video pasal dia.

ada 1 time,
an old couple from China
simply grabbed Zareef from me.
i was so surprised n panicked!
da la tak boleh berbahasa inggeris.
dok chong cheng,
ambil Zareef bawak lari kat tour group dia
T-T
seriously menakutkan.
dorg ckp Zareef comel.mata bulat.
ni pon chinese from tour group aku la yg translate.

oh yeap.
Taiwanese tak boleh berbahasa inggeris ye.
simple pon tak boleh.
kalau tanya how much,
dorg paham.
tapi ambil calculator nak btau harga!

tempat paling best adelah night market kat Taipei!
gila besttttt!
since dorg nak tukar musim,
so banyak barang yg dijual murah.
aku beli banyak gile tops.
kene tengok jugak la.
ade yg murah.
ade yg mahal.
mommy Zareef beli yg murah sajo.
hikhik.
souvenirs mahal kat sana.
keychain 6 rm20.
t-shirt yg ade signature taiwan sume rm30.
huh.

makanan adelah tade yg halal.
kecuali kalau g dekat masjid die.
kat taiwan ade 3,4 masjid je.
jadi kami makan kedai pure vege.
tak pon makan kat tempat yg dijamin tade pork.
sume bergantung kat tour guide la.
nasib tour guide sgt memahami.
sbb kami je melayu muslim.
tapi die akan pastikan setiap makan minum kami.
selebihnya adelah tawakal.
:)

oklah.
kat bawah ni gambar sepanjang kami d Taiwan.


-sian Zareef tersenget-


-ombak kuat sgt kat cni. ni adelah bahagian selatan Taiwan-


-suasana night market-


-yours truly yg sibuk buat investment-


-yours truly-


-my heroes-


- my heroes lagi -



- night market lagi-


- alhamdulillah sempat melawat masjid d Taipei -


- Narako National Park. cantik sangat!-


- in d cave -



- before depature -


- kat taman bunga -


- peminat fanatic anakanda-


baiklah!
itu saja.
nak cite details macam x larat je.
ni pon sambil update blog da bape kali pause.
jap-jap Zareef merengek.
jap-jap da tergolek.
hadui.
naseb la comel sgt!

++ BLuEs ++

ohhh..im still on blues.
it's been a week after Taiwan trip.
but it seems that my mind n body r not ready for work,YET!
bile nak ready?
TAH!
hihihi.

we are bz preparing n vetting the exam papers.
bosan.
T-T

footnote:yes!it was a splendid babymoon!:)

not much time to blog.

will write later!

++ eSCaPaDe ++

another 4days before we go for babymoon.
not that excited.
hihi.

hope everything will be okay.
hope we can find halal food easily.
hope Zareef will enjoy d trip as both of his parents will do.
hope i can control myself from splurging.
ha-ha.

++ MoNDaY BLueS ++

anyone feels like this?
MEEEEEE!
hahahahaha!

i feel soooo tired..
last week was fulled with a lot of dramas.
i had low blood pressure AGAIN!
almost-fainted-incidents occurred to me a few times.
then i had food poisoning.
i vomited while driving.
T-T
then i vomited again sooo many times at home.
n had diarrhea too.
dehydrated too.
was very weak.
poor health.

my family came on friday.
yeay!
tq mak n abah!
we had fun.

i splurged again!
T-T
body shop had their freindship day celebration.
so i dragged my younger sister to buy things for 20% disc
n i got 30% disc.
hehe.

then later we went to jalan tar.
bought shawls n many stuffs....
Z hanye mampu memandang.
hahahaha.

another 2 weeks to go to Taiwan.
not that excited.
i hope Zareef will b ok thru out d trip.
it's going to be winter in Taiwan.
but d temperature is not that low.

tah.
life is up n down.
so trying to holding on.
rase nak ajak Z pindah balik kg!

++ bZ ++

seblom ni mcm tak tahu erti bz keje.
slalu Z perli-perli sbb aku keje senang je tp gaji......hihihi...
TAPI....
sem ni bz sesangat!
appointed as coordinator,
kene key in name budak.
pehtu layan mcm-mcm karenah budak neh.
da daftar pastu jadual clash blablabla..
rimasnyeee!
n this sem ajar 7classes!
gile.
banyak betol!

dulu jumaat tade class.
starting this week da ade.
budak yg dapat muet band 1 & 2 kene amek satu course baru.
4hours per week.
additional to another english course (2+1).
so budak2 neh blja english 7jam seminggu.
harapnye dapat la mereka spekong lepas abes sem!

telinge ni apekene tah.
sakit recurring je.
da jumpe ent specialist last week.
dapat ubat n akan jumpe lg this week.
sakit n buat tade mood.

Zareef turned to 7 months yesterday!
alhamdulillah.
inilah hadiah paling bermakna.
sgt aktif.
ade 1 gigi nak tumbuh.
menyulur laju gile 1 rumah.
mcm nak merangkak.
tp x de pon.
tetibe semalam da memanjat nak berdiri.
eiii...seriau je.
laju pulak tu.
n suke membebel kuat-kuat sorang-sorang.

sekarang mcm gile deco rumah.
spend la duet yg ade nak beli itu ini.
nak tambah ape yg patut.
wahal next month nak pakai duet g taiwan.
huhu.
tp skrg rumah mcm syurgaku.
buat hati tenang n badan penat balik keje jd heppy!

arini tetbe terpikir pasal future financial planning.
to b honest, aku mmg tak brape ade saving.
saving yg beberape riban mak abah bagi dulu ade la.
sendiri punye tade.
skrg da 25.
aku target in next 10-15years nak beli landed property,
iaitu rumah ade tanah.
cadangnye nak beli kat kuala kangsar.
sbb rumah kat kl/selangor x boleh dekat kot.
mahal gile.
lgpon aku n Z akan settle down kat sane.
mujur kawen org sekampung.
hihi.

nak beli rumah kene bayar depo 10-15%.
mane nak carik cash 30k kalau tak nyimpan kan.
so Z balik malam nanti nak bentangkan kertas cadangan.
banyak nak planning.
semoga Allah mudahkan!
amin.

what say u?
kene start pk pasal future planning tau!
:)

- there's no better place than home -

++ HeCTiC, SiCk ++

selamat hari raya!
hope it's not too late for me to wish all Muslims!

hari raya celebration was packed with visiting relatives activities.
z n i n Zareef spent most of our time with both families.
n we had majlis naik buai for Zareef n Darish.
Zareef got a lot of duit raya!
wehuuuu!

i got this ear infection during fasting month.
then when i ate all d drugs given by doctor,
it healed.
somehow i couldnt stop myself from cleaning my ear.
actually i overclean them.
so the infection erupts again.
very painful!!!!
i couldnt sleep [very well]
d doc gave me 4 days mc.
z couldnt stop teasing me because i love to overclean my ears.
T-T

now d infection is recovering n d pain has subsided.
alhamdulillah.
but i think it affects my hearing.
i was told by some frens that d doc is going to suck all
d liquid trapped in my ear.
n d process is going to b very painful!
T-T
i vow myself that i wont ever prick my ears anymore!!!
on wednesday im going to do further checkup.
d doc needs to see whether i have perforated my ear drum or not.
bad hands!
hopefully i will not be deaf yet.

d semester has just begun.
actually today is d 1st day.
i like my schedule.
just d fact that i hv two 8am classes
n two finishing classes at 7pm.
:(

when i went out this morning,
my heart sank heavily.
Zareef has just woke up n he was staring at me.
smiling.
n kak mas says he is a bit cranky today.
he gets flu n i think that disturbing him.
i felt like crying!
this 1st week is going to b very hectic.
i am appointed as a coordinator this sem.
heavy loads!!!

i now this n3 sounds like too pack with different stories.
n i know no one is bother to read.
hahaha.

z n i are a bit disturbed this week.
we think we want to find job n move back to our hometown!
dunno y!
im not sure whether this is something that we really want to do...
or just d result of spending d holidays too long at our hometown...
:)