++HiLToN ++

annual dinner company Z tadi.
chinese cuisine.
apsal la portion sket2.
mak buyong asyik rasa x kecukupan je...

++HiLToN ++

annual dinner company Z tadi.
chinese cuisine.
apsal la portion sket2.
mak buyong asyik rasa x kecukupan je...

++ 2 ++

arini saje nak recap pasal 2nd pregnancy ni.
mase Zareef dulu x rasa sangat perubahan pape.
adik Zareef ni ngengade sket.
huhu.

Week 4: Muntah, cirit-birit, angin,fever.
Week 5: Discover pregnancy
Week 6: Fatigue n kurang selera makan
Week 7-10: Nausea, muntah, bloating, memilih makan, fatigue
Week 11-12: Nausea, fatigue,bloating
Week 13: Almost back to normal. Alhamdulillah.

Maybe adik Zareef paham yg mama dah jadi single mother skrg ni.so dia less meragam.hewhew.
skrg ni Zareef pulak yg macam2 ragam.
he's turning two next month.
mama x buat celebration kot.
kita sambut kecik2 jela kat kg since nak balik next week.
advanced celebration.
:)

arap2 berat badan akan naik 2nd trimester ni.

++NGiDaM++

teringin sgt nak makan udang galah masak lemak.
nak balik kampung lambat lg.
mujurlah rumah dekat ngan pasar borong 24jam.
pukul 11 Z pegi cari udang semalam.
jadi hari ini sy breakfast nasik n udang.
haha.

sy sekarang macam single mother.
n ade lots of news nak share nnti.
later ya.
now nak g bon apetite!
♥

++ MaiN MaSaK-MaSaK ++

alhamdulillah.
sekarang dah boleh memasak.
sebelum ni x lalu nak dok lama-lama kat dapur.
meloya je kekdahnye kan.

malam ni masak nasik lomak sajo.
barang-barang basah x de.
n aku sendiri dah dua tahun lebih x masuk pasar borong.
kalau terdesak sangat memang shopping d jj depan umah je.
tp Z kate rugi.
sebab pasar borong dekat rumah ni lagi fresh n murah.
jadi Z ajelah yg g membeli belah di pasar borong bila perlu

aku rasa Allah macam tengah memberi sesuatu petunjuk pada aku.
benda yg aku dah lama nak...
tp x dapat.
tiba2 kali ni terbentang di depan mata.
aku tengah pikir either this is d best option for me or not.
n either it will do good for us.
us dcni refers to aku,Z,Zareef n baby...

masih berfikir2.
ntah lah.
aku rasa plan hidup aku n Z dah huru hara sesangat sangat.
lain yg kami plan...
lain pulak yg kami buat...

tadi Z dapat surat increment.
first time dapat increment setinggi itu.
tapi macam dah too late je....

haih.
ntahlah.
serabut aku.

++ cRaViNg ++

aritu ade org post gambar lontong kat ig.
terus tertelan airliur berkali2.
haih.
susah tau jadi i.
cepat terliur.

pastu sebuk tanye kawan2 area bangi n upm kat mana nak cari lontong.
Nurin cakap ada satu kedai dekat upm serves lontong for breakfast.
but a day before tu, another colleague told me how dirty d restaurant is.
euwww.
terus x jadi.

so arini x g keje n masak lontong.
haha.
tp ni lontong simple je.
meriah dg sayur semata sebab kedai pondan kat bawah tu x de jual udang basah.
masak sekali sambal tumis ikan bilis.
alhamdulillah.
kenyang.
dah licin seperiuk.

ni Z suh masak lg sebab dia nak rasa.
baiklah.
ur wish is my command!♥

uh..
jangan lah pasni org letak gambar2 lain plk.
i ni cepat tergoda.
hew hew.

++ eMo ++

i became very emotional recently.
airmata macam tiada bernilai lagi.
ewah.

semalam Zareef ambik dua periuk from d kitchen.
yg kecik dia sarung atas kepala dia buat helmet.
yg besar die sarung kat kepala Z.
then he pulled Z's hand n ajak jalan2 round rumah.
so cute.
tp aku menangis.

Z n Zareef selalu tido gaya yg sama.
if mengiring,2-2 hadap arah yg sama.
even hand styles pon sama.
ergh.
jeles pulak bonding dorg tu.
n cam biasa la.
sedih n sayu lagi.

haiyoh Lya.
ramai org cakap anak no 2 ni nanti mcm2 ragam.
ah.
x payah org cakap lah.
aku sendiri anak no2.
memang lain sikit pe'el nya masa kecik.
hehe.
so aku taknak emo, nangis2 or merengek2.
takut nanti turun ke anak.

but there r a few things that u cant control.

:')

++ 1 sEm ++

finally dah habes 1st sem of master.

hehe.

baruuu je anta last two assignments tadi.

lega.

tapi sedih jugak because i'm surely will rest myself from taking 2nd sem.

:(

i've done deep thinking n i'm sure i will not be able to cope with everything.

maybe i can.

but i dont want to take risk.

takut balik rumah penat keje,

then ade assignments master pulak nanti mesti tak ada masa nak layan Zareef.

sian Zareef nanti.

tak apalah.

mama put on hold again.

=)

i can sense that this 2013 is not that promising for me.

yes.

despite of d excitement to receive d new member in this family,

there are a lot of things that don't come the way i want them to be.

awal-awal tahun Z dah buat aku menangis.

:((

tak apalah. nak buat macam mana.

it's not that he wants it that way.

tapi aku sedih jugak.

haih.

i have to be strong.

strong for both Zareef n liltle tot n for Z jugak.

memang Allah janjikan rezeki yang lebih baik utk kami  tahun ni.

but there are some sacrifices that we need to do.

x pe.

sabar Lya sabar.

i hope everything will go well after this.

amin.

approaching 2nd trimester. =)

++ bLueS ++

i remember one year ago at d very same date,
i woke up in one of d hotels in Malacca.
we made a sudden plan to go there on d new year eve.

today, just a minute ago,
i woke up n ran to d loo,
finish my small business n lay back on d bed.
then woke up again n ran to d kitchen to take a slice of cheese cake to savour my tummy.

last nite Z asked me what is our plan for today.
i couldnt help but to smile and frown at d same time.
i used to b d mastermind of plannings!
pantang Z cuti je, i will have a lot of requests to b fulfilled.
but now...i dont have the passion to do almost anything! T-T

nak mandi ~ malas
nak iron baju ~ malas
nak makeup ~ malas
nak decide nak pakai baju ape ~ malas
nak keluar ~ malas + x larat

haih.
i dont understand what hormones are hitting me right now.
how can i be this lazy?
i have not done cooking for almost a month now.
:D
i rarely do d dishes as well.
in fact, i didnt do d laundry that Z had to sent piles of our clothes to d dobi down there.
:D :D

i have been falling sick for twice in december.
n having nausea n sometimes i vomitted too.
mayb these r causing me being me right now.
dulu sakit camne pon rumah mesti kemas n bersih.
boleh la nak masak lauk 3jenis.
nowwwwwww....
T-T

i hope i will pass thru this 1st trimester successfully.
n i hope all these sicknesses r going to stop soon.
*crossing fingers*

skrg baru tahu rase susahnye mengandung.....................