++mOviNg++

kawan2...
sy sudah hampir siap packing sume barang...
seperti biase,
sgt byk beg yg nak dibawak....

sy rase sedikit sedey tuk tinggalkan umah
sbb da lame dok cni kan...
tp umo sy da 23 thun ini!
jd sy harus bersikap matang dan berfikiran +ve!

tp sy tetap sedey n nervous...
sy jenis susah nak mulekan menda baru...
i used to stay in my comfort zone....
n now when i need to step out of it,
i need to face it alone..........

kawan2 doakan keselamatan,
kemudahan, kebahagiaan, ketenangan
dan jugak kewangan sy di shah alam nnti ye...
[amin ramai2 kaih]

lg 2,3 jam sy akan bertolak ke shah alam bersame tunang sy...
esok sy akan mulakan kerja...
sy taktahu sy bley slalu on9 ke x...
kalu bley,
sy pasti update slalu ye!

sobs.

++QuicK uPdatE ++

phewww~lots of things happened in 1 week...
ok...
last wik ari kames aku gerak ke kl
tuk join family mR Z ke tampin...
[abg die kawen last wik]
so ari jumaat n sabtu kami ke tampin
tuk majlis nikah n sanding....
mmg meriah sambutan kat sane...
n ade tgkap byk gambar...
nnti la aku upload ye...

mase otw ke tampin ari sabtu,
aku dpt kol dari kolej ptpl....
dorang panggil interview ari isnin pukul 2.30pm...
ah...tension la time tuh sbb aku da mmg kat kl
tp resume n sgale CV ade kat umah...
ati da tawar...
tp mR Z cakap balek n g amek sume2 tuh...

so pg ahad aku pon pulang la ke rumah...
n pg isnin kembali smule ke kl...
pergghhh...
patah pinggang dok dlm bas...
hahaha...
mase otw dlm bas,
org HR kol lagi...
dorang suh dtg interview pukul 1.30 plak...
sempat mmg la sempat,
tp aku mmg tak lalu nak makan la...
it was my 1st tym kene interview....
ngeee....
mmg sedikit ngeri la...

smpai ptpl,
my best rumate ever n mR Z's besfren [chaer @ eira]
temankan aku ke HR...
kat ctu ade lg 3 candidates tuk jawatan tutor gak...
so quick intro diri msg2 sbb msg2 cam nervous gile nak kene interview....

interview ni ade 2stages...
1st kene wat teaching mode...
n 2nd interview ngan principal...
mase teaching mode tuh cuak la sket
sbb ade 2 org lects len observe kite...
then baru kene interview ngan principal....

aku org terakhir,
so session aku cam cepat je abes...
agaknye die da taktahu nak tnye ape...
hehehe....

semalam,
wakil HR kol n alhamdulillah...
aku diterime n gaji yg aku mintak pon diapprove...
so isnin ni stat keje...
pehni aku dok shah alam...
n tak dapat la nak on9 slalu...

now aku still kat kl...
esok ptg baru balek perak ngan mR Z n abg die...
ahad nnti g shah alam dgn baby AGA aku...

++ hE's LeaVinG mE ++

omaigod.
he's leaving me.
rub ur eyes.
pinch urself.
u aren't dreaming.
i'm telling u,
he -- my fiancee -- mr Z
is leaving me --
soon....

do u still remember d job offer he got like a month ago?
yeah.
d 1 dat needs him to stay in johor for like 1 year o more...
n he's going...
very soon....
n i feel like my world is falling apart!

well.
dunt keep on reminding me dat it's only part of d job thing.
i noe.
i noe dat he's not dumping me or wut.
but can u see there's already 1 small cut in my heart?
my heart aches everytym i'm thinking dat he's moving...
n he's moving very far from me....
[there's never even once we're moving closer to each other-juz to note u]

i went to his house today...
he wasn't there cause he's in KL...
i met his parents...
n i had such a long talk wif his mum..
i guess both of us r d most important women in his life ryte now...
we dunt like d idea of him moving to johor...
but neither of us would like to stand in his way of chasing his dream...
working is part of his dream...
n if diz culd make him happy,
i'll let him go....
[physically of cos!his heart ties to mine]

n i kept saying
'abg da nak g jauh....'
[even when he texts me to tell dat he goes out for dinner(n mind u dat d stall is juz 3minutes drive from his house)]
i noe it is a hard decision for him too...
a few days backwards,
he asked whether is it ok if he moves to johor...
screw me for saying OK!!!
but i noe dat he needs d job...
n it will b very mean of me if being selfish...

he melts my heart by saying diz...
'abg cari duet untuk kite cepat2 kawen...'
he knows my weak spot [kawen!!!]
n i hope u speaking d truth ye abg!!!
kumpui duet n cepat2 kite kawen!

owh.
there r more cuts in my heart...
i guess by d tym he departs to johor,
i'm already dying due to severe cuts in my heart...

i need miracle...
no.
wut i need is faith n patience.
ya Allah...
lend me those strength...

++ mEnGoRaT diNgORaT ++

da 2ari aku bukak inbox fs n dpt msg dari sorg mamat neh...

1st msg die::

assalamualaikum
	blh sy nk berkenalan dgan saudari no sy 013352**** cntck tau

2nd msg bile 1st msg tak dibalas::

assalamualaikum
	sy iklas nk berkenalan dgan saudari

* * * *

bende ni normal la...
kalu bukak kat tagged,
aku rase lg srabut bace msg2 org anta...

skang ni da teknologi tggi...
org ngorat pakai tenet je...
dulu2 org ngorat pakai surat...
[terbayang cite pak sudin panggil awek gune botol tuh]

dlm byk2 pengalaman dingorat...
ade beberape insiden la yg aku masih teringat smpai skang...

1st::
mase makan mcD kat gurney plaza.
tetibe makcik keje ctu selit sekeping kertas bawah plate aku...
aku cam tak phm la...
then makcik tu cakap,
"ade org nak berkenalan..."
ceh...stakat selit no fon...
len la kalu selit nugget 12ketul bersame sos bbq!

2nd::
sum1 yg aku kenal di fs...
starting ngan komen2...
then tuka no phone...
mase kami komen2 dulu,
aku slalu la cakap nak buah strowberi
[coz die dok kat tapah]
tetbe die dtg jupe aku dgn 1beg plastik buah strowberi plbagai saiz!

3rd::
mase makan kfc kat qb mall...
aku makan ngan best rumate ever ~ayuni..
tetbe sorg pekerje die dtg n tnye...
"pandai bace jawi x?"
aku ngan rumate cm da pelik...
at 1st aku ingat ade contest kfc yg kene gune tulisan jawi...
so aku pon jwb...
"bley la...sket2...."
tetbe die bagi 1 kertas...
"ha...cube bace neh..."
aku bace la tulisan jawi tuh...
tulis kat ctu,
'assalammualaikum...boleh kita berkenalan...arif'
ade no fon...
tp aku tak kontek la..
juz bawak balek kertas tu tuk buat kenangan
sbb aku rase unik plak die tulis jawi...
ahahahah....

4th::
lepas solat maghrib 27/6/08,
aku dpt 1 msg...
msg ni panjang gile...
so aku quote sket je la ye...
" ......x pyh kapel pn aku xkesah...
nk kwen xsmestinye kene kapel..
xde dlm adat n adab dlm islam pn..
aslkn dpt wat ko slesa ngan aku,
insyaAllah aku akn wat je.."
ini la antara sebahagian drpd msg mR Z utk aku,
yg bwak hubungan kiteorg 1 step further than hanya berkawan...
tp yg lawaknye...
mule2 ye2 je die kate xpyh kapel pon xpe!
seminggu lepas tu die trus mtak declare...
hahahaha....

aku sure sume org penah ade pengalaman mengorat o dingorat kan kan kan?
meh share kat cni!

these r d pics dat i promised in d previous n3...

mule2 g terjah rumah azfa...
she's my fren since kindergarten!
n die jugak kawan mR Z...
theme color kat umah die orange!
wrne striking but she looks great!

then g rumah jua plak...
neh kawan sejak f1...
theme color kat umah die pepel!
n jua pon nampak cantek sgt!!!
she looks totally different!

n dpt berjupe kwn2 lame is d bes dem thing!

ok!

shadap lya!

mari layan pics~

mase kat umah azfa,
azfa sempat tanye...
"tahun depan zakril kate korg plak eh?"

++ i WisH ++

i think i've been to 5 to 6 weds diz wiken...
i'm not reely into attending feasts...
but when it comes to my frens' weds,
i tried my best to b 1 of d guests...

on saturday,
2 of my frens got married...
they were azfarizan n azuha...
i'm reely heppy 4 both of them
n they reely looked stunning on dat day!

i had so much fun hang around with old frens...
i even met up 2 of my frens from my kindergarten old days...
hahaha...
can u imagine?
we havent met for like 15 yers...
whoa...
i reely felt old!

not to mention...
i met sum frens from my high school...
syatul aka opah...
fizah, izani, farahiyah,alia, akma
n many2 of them!

n d same question kept on buzzing me...

well....
when we r single,
they ask when we gonna hook up wif sum1...
n once we r in a r/ship,
they start asking
when we gonna get engage..
n once we have engaged,
they start to ask
when is d big day...
n trust me...
there r more questions to come
abt babies, in laws n grandchildren!

phewww...
guys!
reely....
i wish i could tell u when is my big day...
but i cant!
coz i dunno...
it's a big question mark in my life
n how am i suppose to give u d answer
when i'm still wondering abt d answer...

it's not like i'm having a mess in my r/ship...
we r definitely dying to get married!
it's juz dat both of us r still struggling for our career..
n i guess dat comes 1st...
we have planned a few things..
we have our own target...
but it is very confidential for us both...
we will work it out
n hopefully we can hit d target...
insyaAllah...
d tym will come...
1 thing i can assure u,
dat it's not diz yer...
^___^

footnote:: i'll upload pics on d next n3...

++ tErKeNanG ++

Bile bace n3 Yna psl bikini,

Tetibe aku pon teringatkan

Bikini swimming suit aku…

Tak hengat campak katne…

Pagi td baru terjupe kembali…

Haha…

Ni la swimming suit aku.

Cumel kan!

Siap ade micro mini skirt tuh…

Ops…tapi tapi…

Sile jgn bayangkan cane rupe

Aku pakai swimming suit neh…

Haram woooo….

In fact,

Kalu kat alam reality,

Aku sarung tight 3quarter kat luar…

Tade nye la aku nak pakai cenggitu je!

Swimming suit ni aku beli mase 3^rd yer kat usm.

Mase tu cam revolusi besar₂an di klgn tesol clique aku.

Sume pakat nak beli swimming suit tuk blajar swimming!

Tapi hakikatnye….

Sampai skang aku still tak pandai swimming…

Gile ah.

Da la kolam usm tu dalam gile…

Stiap kali g sane,

Aku msti melekap je kat tepi kolam mcm lumut.

Hahaha…

Tp aku blaja la buat floating sket²…

contohnye Mushroom float…

comel la blakang badan terapung cam cendawan butang tuh!

Hahahaha….

Oh gosh.

Aku rindu zaman² tuh…

Waktu tu agak nakal la…

Sambil g pool,

Msti cuci mate jugak!

Dats y bile da stat cintun ngan mR Z,

Die da tak izinkan aku g pool tym biase…

Die suh ak g ladies' hour je…

Muahaha….

Last aku sarung swimming suit neh last yer kot…

Sumwhere in july….

G pool kuale ngan mR Z…

Tak bley blah la ayat die

waktu 1^st tym aku kua dari bilik salin baju tuh…

"alolo…comeinye…..siap ade skirt2"

Hahahahhaha…

Hampehkan!

Tym tuh rase nak bukak je suar tight yg aku pakai tuh!

Bajet nak bg die terliur!

Kahkahkah…

Skang neh x tahu la bile plak akan pakai lg….

N tah bile nak blaja swimming nye…

Nak blaja ngan mR Z tak bley lg…

Tggu tahun depan la…

Die da kaye nnti suh die buat swimming pool besar kat umah!

Mase tuh baru bley berbikini cam Yna!

++ oFferS ++

Whoa!

Offers keep coming in!

I juz got a call from ptpl.

They would like to arrange an interview for me!

Aha!

I got excited wif diz 1 because my bestfren aka best rumate ever

Is working there too…

Not to mention,

Her sister is there too!

We're like a big family then!

=p

Ok2 lya…

Dunt get too excited..

Tak tentu lg bley dapat…

Ahaha….

Tp hopefully bley dpt permit dari my parents la…

Actly dpt attend interview pon da bagus tau!

Dapat keje tu blakang kire…

Sbb aku nak rase pengalaman di interview tuh!

N td d same private college from kl kol lg…

Die cakap if tak bley dtg esok,

They r willing to reschedule for me…

Wah!

Tgok la cane…

Tp mak n abah cm takkan bg je dok kl…

Shah alam tu pon sbb ade guardian angel!

++ DiSaPpoiNtMenT ++

I'm telling u,

I'm in d biggest disappointment

At d momentos…

Yesterday I got a called from

A private college in KL,

Asking me to come for an interview

For English lecturer post

[offering 2.5k salary]

Gosh!

I really wanna go!
but my parents had say NO!

I noe dat,

It's not like I'm gonna get the post.

But it's a worth trying.

I've never been for an interview b4…

So diz might be a new, worth experience 4 me…

Then last nyte

I was anxiously waited 4 my results

[till I fall asleep]

Woke up at 2.30 am

N jumping from d bed franticly

To get my lappy.

N there my result is……..

I got an A- for my LM.

[Alhamdulillah]

It means I get 3.67 for diz sem…

But the other disappointment

Is my cgpa!!!

It only increased 0.02.

Damn.

I'm graduating wif 3.46….

I'm juz not in d mood………..

++ ConGratuLatIon n cELeBraTion ++

mR Z skang berade tak jauh dari aku…

tp die sedang bekerja.

he.

So tak dpt nak dating2 sgt!

Td die msg btau 2 brite gembira.

1^st::

Jeng2…

Alhamdulillah…

Die dapat keje da…

N mybe start on july nnti…

Wah…jd engineer da u!

2^nd::

Results tesis die da kua…

N Alhamdulillah…

Die dapat A…

Waaaa….

Aku sndiri dlm debaran tggu results mlm neh!

Papepon..

Tahniah abg!

Syg jeles heppy for u!

Notakaki::kena pose nazar seari la….

++ HaRi tuA ++

30th may 09
bersamaan dgn ari sabtu
adelah besday kakak aku...
she's turning to 27 dis year!
yeay...
da tua!
cepat2 bg lg byk2 nephews kat aku.
n nak niece 2,3 ketul jugak!

sempena besday die,
yong jemput kami ke umah die...
die kate die masak sedap.
tp bile smpai,
die tak larat masak plak.
ces.

it's ok.
aku tetap melantak dgn byk.
n mintak maaf my dear sys...
aku tak dpt nak bg adiah gempak.
tggu aku keje next year keh!
diz month aku overbudget
sbb beli purse fossil...
maaf!

no matter wut,
u r d most amazing sys ever!

ok.
enuff wif d talking,
[i mean writing]
tepek pics saje eh.
n maafkan kualiti gambar yg rendah.
tak bawak dgtal cam...

~my heppy family~

~sisters~


~adik aku cakap ade unsur kegedikkan pade pic neh.~


~yup.besday aku lambat lg.so ape salahnye aku tumpang skaki kan?~

yong!
selamat ari jadi!
jd la istri,ibu,anak,serta kakak yg terbaik!
luv u!!!!