Wednesday, June 17, 2009

++ hE's LeaVinG mE ++

omaigod.
he's leaving me.
rub ur eyes.
pinch urself.
u aren't dreaming.
i'm telling u,
he -- my fiancee -- mr Z
is leaving me --
soon....

do u still remember d job offer he got like a month ago?
yeah.
d 1 dat needs him to stay in johor for like 1 year o more...
n he's going...
very soon....
n i feel like my world is falling apart!

well.
dunt keep on reminding me dat it's only part of d job thing.
i noe.
i noe dat he's not dumping me or wut.
but can u see there's already 1 small cut in my heart?
my heart aches everytym i'm thinking dat he's moving...
n he's moving very far from me....
[there's never even once we're moving closer to each other-juz to note u]

i went to his house today...
he wasn't there cause he's in KL...
i met his parents...
n i had such a long talk wif his mum..
i guess both of us r d most important women in his life ryte now...
we dunt like d idea of him moving to johor...
but neither of us would like to stand in his way of chasing his dream...
working is part of his dream...
n if diz culd make him happy,
i'll let him go....
[physically of cos!his heart ties to mine]

n i kept saying
'abg da nak g jauh....'
[even when he texts me to tell dat he goes out for dinner(n mind u dat d stall is juz 3minutes drive from his house)]
i noe it is a hard decision for him too...
a few days backwards,
he asked whether is it ok if he moves to johor...
screw me for saying OK!!!
but i noe dat he needs d job...
n it will b very mean of me if being selfish...

he melts my heart by saying diz...
'abg cari duet untuk kite cepat2 kawen...'
he knows my weak spot [kawen!!!]
n i hope u speaking d truth ye abg!!!
kumpui duet n cepat2 kite kawen!

owh.
there r more cuts in my heart...
i guess by d tym he departs to johor,
i'm already dying due to severe cuts in my heart...

i need miracle...
no.
wut i need is faith n patience.
ya Allah...
lend me those strength...





12 comments:

YuNyLoveSYou said...

kisah hg sama mcm aku ler~~~ aduyai!!! masa pas tunang, salman kena start keja kat KL!!!!! slalu dok penang je kitorang! tetiba dia dapat keja kat KL~ woh!!!! seksaaaa beb!!! tapi alhamdulillah, walau ribut melanda, akhirnya salman dapat kerja kat png... fuhhhh... akulah manusia paling bahagia~~~~~ i will pray for both of u!! cepat2 kawen! aku tak sabaq nak pi kenduri hg!!! hehehehehe...

:: Mr. Imran :: said...

everybody will feel the same as u are. i'm stay at venice n always travel. never stay 1 place at 1 time. my gf at kl. its hard for first time but soon u'll ok.

last year was my traumatic time. doc said i hav cancer. brain cancer. still fighting da stupid cancer.

jauh dlm 1 ngri takpe lag jauh antr 2 alam lag ssahkn?

:: Lya Zara :: said...

aYuN::
thanks yun...
hopefully cepat2 la die dpt keje area dekat di mate n dekat di hati...hahahaha....

:: Lya Zara :: said...

iMRaN::
imran,i'm so sorry to noe dat...
but it seems u r 1 tough person...
hope everything will b ok for u both...

n u r ryte...
i'm lucky n i should cherish d moment...

Pei Pan said...

Jauh di mata dekat di hati [ memupuk kerinduan :D. Kk-Jhr bape jam je kak...blh p dating wiken nt ehee

adi's wife said...

liya.. aku paham sgt perasaan ko.. at least ko dh jd tunang dia bile berjauhan.. time aku dlu.. couple tak bape lame.. br seminggu kot.. dah ceben kene pegi dubai 1weeks.. pastu berpisah 6months dia ade kursus.. lepas tu berpisah lagi 2weeks dia g jepun plak.. seyus setangah tahun pertama aku rs aku couple cam main2 je.. jumpe pon jarang2 hahaha.. harap gayut je la.. tu pon ms dia kat dubai 3hari sekali dia call aku.. lg teruk..

I_Hate_Lolipop said...

tahi ko nyah, aku ingat amende la tadi.biasa la, tu nak gi keje bukan gi kawen lain.hiks......

:: Lya Zara :: said...

peipan::
owh..tak bley dating2 da pehni kot...
=(

:: Lya Zara :: said...

zaZa::
sedey2..
tp disebabkan tgah bz skang neg,
tak sempat sgt nak pk pasal pisah...
tp next wik sedey la aku...
die da g jauh....

:: Lya Zara :: said...

sYatuL::
tp aku still sedey....

I_Hate_Lolipop said...

kawen je, kan mudah...

:: Lya Zara :: said...

sYatuL::
bak duet!