++ WoRDLeSS WeDNeSDaY ++

++ sTuPiDiTy ++

i was browsing thru my old entries when i suddenly felt very stupid.
oh maigod.
i'm talking about some entries where i had fights with those-who-know-who-they-r.

i feel so embarrassed right now.
how did i involve in those things?

now i understand why Z asked me to remain calm
n let them say what they wanted.
but stupid me.
i got too carried away.too.

i think i had became matured after marriage.
no more writing about others.
i hope no more.

have u ever wondered what's wrong with ur life?
why r u still struggling to patch things here n there?
why r u always trying to make things better?[as if it never as good as it is?]

i have my answers.
hope you'll find yours.

i'm going to change my url soon.
i'm hoping to b a better person!
insyaAllah.

++ LiTTLe aNGeL ++

this n3 is in my draft since july 2011!
since i still feel d same,
i think why not publish it!
ha-ha.

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i used to wake up in d middle of d nite n struggling to continue sleeping.
usually it takes about 1 hour or more to make me go sleeping again.

i usually get my hp n starts playing Jewels n Angry Bird.
but typical me.i got angry playing Angry Bird when i lost.

so i will watch Zareef sleeping just right next to me.

it is an incredible feeling seeing him sleeping so soundly.
sometimes he will smile in his sleep.it makes me smile too.
n sometimes he will frown n make frightened face as if he is having a nightmare.
n i will quickly hug n pat him to make him feel safe.

i always have feelings of
"have i done d best?"
- when thinking of my responsibility of a mother.
i used to ask myself this question.
it keeps on buzzing me.
i want to b the best mother for Zareef.
i want to do d best for him.

i guess every mom feels the same things.

it is just that we will have different approaches.


Zareef...
mama loves u always.