++♥++

1 year 8 months 2 days....
U r my sunshine...

++HeRo++

raising up a kid is never easy.
but seeing them growing right in front of u is always d best thing ever...

++ ZaReeF 's MiLeStoNeS ++

Zareef turned 1 almost a month ago.

a week after his birthday,

he was very crancky.

it was really testing my patience.

d semeseter was just started n lots of things to cope with.

i know i wasnt the best mother.

but im trying really hard.

i always remind myself that Zareef is still small.

he cant differentiate d rights n d wrongs.

i am d one who have to b matured.

i didnt realize how Zareef has grown up so fast.

he is very good at messing with my clothes.

a minute i leave him in d room,

all of my clothes are scattered on d floor n bed.

that will be his favourite game!

he will be very busy going trough all of my makeup stuffs in d drawers.

separating them into different places.

i put all of my skinfood products on d top shelf of my dressing table.

i feel safe.

but yesterday Zareef climbed on d dressing table to reach the stuffs!

T-T

not to mention,

he loves playing with the kitchen utensils!

dont be surprised that u will be able to see my frying pan

n tupperwares all over d place!

sangat letih mengemas rumaahhhhh!

Zareef akan sepahkan 1 spot,

then he will go to other spot utk sepahkan tempat tu pulak.

tempat yg da sepah die x kan main dah.

bila mama kemas,

dia akan sepah kan balik!

game apekah itu?

then i told myself that i shouldnt worried too much

whether d house is ok or not.

kan?

Zareef is growing up so i should give him d space that he needs.

even it seems that he needs all the spaces/rooms in d house.

hahahaha.

oklah.

nak g makan.

pampering myself with good food!

i never feel guilty of eating a lot sbb memang x pernah gemuk.

huhu.

BABAI!

++ LiTTLe aNGeL ++

this n3 is in my draft since july 2011!
since i still feel d same,
i think why not publish it!
ha-ha.

* * * * * * * *


i used to wake up in d middle of d nite n struggling to continue sleeping.
usually it takes about 1 hour or more to make me go sleeping again.

i usually get my hp n starts playing Jewels n Angry Bird.
but typical me.i got angry playing Angry Bird when i lost.

so i will watch Zareef sleeping just right next to me.

it is an incredible feeling seeing him sleeping so soundly.
sometimes he will smile in his sleep.it makes me smile too.
n sometimes he will frown n make frightened face as if he is having a nightmare.
n i will quickly hug n pat him to make him feel safe.

i always have feelings of
"have i done d best?"
- when thinking of my responsibility of a mother.
i used to ask myself this question.
it keeps on buzzing me.
i want to b the best mother for Zareef.
i want to do d best for him.

i guess every mom feels the same things.

it is just that we will have different approaches.


Zareef...
mama loves u always.

++ BiRThDaY PaRTy ++

next month Zareef is turning to 1!

masyaAllah.
how fast time flies...
i still remember last year,
i was struggling with my big tummy;
in emotional battle [takut nak beranak]...

i want to hold a birthday party for Zareef!
this will b his first birthday celebration n i want it to b special.
:)

i've been thinking about several themes for d past 2months.
making some calculations...mentally as usuall.
n now that it is just around d corner,
then only i start being serious.

i didnt know that planning for ur son's birthday party could b this exciting!
it reminds me on how i planned my wedding last 2 years [what!dah 2years??]
n i never knew that there are a lot of themes for them!
i had hard time choosing 1!
yes.mama yg lelebih. itu kicik mane tahu ape.

finally, we've chosen ROCK STAR theme.
happen to be last weekend,
we went to a bakery shop back in hometown
n saw guitar shaped balloons!
both Z n i were excited.
n we decided on the theme!

when i did some browsing yesterday,
there were a lot of fantastic pictures.
hardly to find from malaysia for sure.
n i hardly follow d same, exact ideas too.[money constraints!HA-HA]

mari cuci mata!

seriously.you ROCK!

look at d cakes!!!!!!!!

simple props.but they really make u feel as if u r going to a real concert!

this is d invitation card that comes with a CD that compiled d boy's favourite rock songs!

pics taken from here.

hebat kan!
rase nak nangis.
hahaha.
then browse lg n came across this event planner.
based in Malaysia.
they are specialised in:

1) table set up

2) alphabet banner

3) cupcake toppers

4) food labels, mineral water labels, cupcake wrappers, deco stuffs etc

pics courtesy from Creative Design Printables FB.
you can shoot them an email for pricing n such.

i am surely can't afford anything like this!
i want a birthday party for Zareef.
something to remember.
tapi tamo bazir terlampau.
sbb baik buat saving tuk Zareef kan!
i'm trying my best to make something special.

so this morning i tried to DIY those little things tu.
cake toppers, labels, etc...
i'm not that creative u know.
i have d ideas.
tp bila hands on hancussss!
tp boleh la kalau terdesak.
dari tade.

tetibe teringatkan abg Z yg photographer tu.
oh my!
he is really good in designing.
so tanye kat wife die kot boleh buat bnde-bnde gini.
sebanrnye malu nak direct ngan abgyg.
mesti die kate Lya ni tah hape-hape la idea die.
hahaha.
naseb la my biras is so sporting!
she said it's a good idea n abgyang boleh buatkan.
tp x sure la.
malam nti baru bincang lg.
oh.i hope abgyg boleh designkan!
i dont mind to do d donkey job;
gunting n tampal on d toothpick.
lgpon creative design pon design kn sje.
then we hv to go for printing n do d rest ourselves.

kalau abgyg x dapat buatkan,
then Zareef redha la dgn hasil tangan mama!

till here then.
i'll update more abt d preparation!

++ HeaRt MeLTiNG ++

sgt rindu dia.
rasa nak balik n hug him tightly NOW.

++ mY ZaReeF ++

i wanted to blog about taiwan trip!
but im using my pc in office n i dunno y
i cant resize d photos!
nak buat kat rumah mmg la mcm xkan je kan.

so nanti-nanti la ye.

my little Zareef is 8months+.
Ya Allah.
macam-macam perangai da skrg ni.
tp seriously,
wpon penat, i feel happy seeing him this way.

zareef da sifu merangkak.
he treasures all d territories in d house.
sangat suke berdiri kat mane-mane yg boleh.
his fav spot will b d dining table.
to b precise kaki dining table.
he doesnt really care with d cartoons or his toys nowadays.

he can utter mama, mamamamamamama, papa n ababababa...
cute gile...
i think he knows that mama refers to me n papa refers to z.
because he will b looking at us.
n if i answer him,
he will be so happy n crawl on my lap.

he develops manja habit in taiwan.
asyik nak berdukung ngan mama je.
everything will b mama.
sampai rumah je if mama nak bangun bukak tudung pon
nanges macam kene dera.T-T
sgt suka nenen.
i mean bergayut je la keje nye wpon my milk production is zero sometimes.
kalau z kacau confirm dia nanges sekuat ati.
n mama terpaksa ala-ala pasrah je.
T-T

i think by this age,
he has started learning n adapting with d environment.
he wants to try things out n loves to grab anything that he sees.
but babies at this age will be learning thru eating.
literally i meant.
zareef will simply put everything into his mouth.
makan tissue, paper excerpt, kotak, bedak n macam-macam lg.
risau je haku!

n now he is very independent.
dah pandai meneroka rumah seorang diri.
there was one time,
i TER-dozed off about 10mins.
bile terjage tengok die tade n tade bunyi pulak tu.
senyap je.
gile cuak!
rupe dok kat corner of d house n makan kertas!
T_T
pernah jugak kuar from toilet n cari die kat living room
[well, he was there bfore i went to d toilet]
n he WASN'T there!
cari kat dapur tade.
cari kat corner living room tade.
rupenye in d middle room tengah main hanger.

my little sayang.
he always makes me smile.

nak letak gambar x boleh resize pulak.
huhu.

tu je.
papai!

oh ye.
i believe Zareef manja dengan mama than papa.
kalau papa dukung pon mata kat mama je.
kalau mama datang dekat,
sure depa tangan o tarik tudung minta dukung.
n yesterday,
zareef was crawling.
z thought that zareef was crawling towards him.
instead, zareef came to me.
crawled pass z without giving a glance pon!
ha-ha.

++ iT's NoT a WW ++

usually i'll post a wordless wednesday rite!
but not today.

hihi...

my Zareef is not a small baby anymore.
he's a bit notty la lately.
he loves to mumbles a lot of sounds.
sometimes it sounds like a song.
:)
i think he is now venturing into new adventure!
he loves to explore a lot of new things.
i cant deny that it's a bit disturbing for me sometimes.
i got worried [ok.scrapped that.i got freaked out] most of the times.
i turned a few minutes n discovering him under d dining table.
another minutes he will be prickling d sockets n plugs.
d next minute he will be crying!

but i love d developments!
rase mcm die da besar.
boleh jd kawan n buat teman berbual.
:)

bye mama.i want to venture d world!take gud care of urself!

dunt worry!i can take care of myself!

ahhh..finally i arrived!

i need to get d plastic bag!there must b something special in it for mama!

yes. almost there!ohhh...how i wish i could be taller!


then i picked him up before he fall off!
hihi.

i love u Zareef!
i love u sooooooooooo much!